1 Samuel 9

"Saul replied, 'But I’m only from the tribe of Benjamin, the smallest tribe in Israel, and my family is the least important of all the families of that tribe! Why are you talking like this to me?'" v.21
"Why are you talking to me like this?" Saul's outburst reveals a problem he would face repeatedly - feeling inferior. Like a leaf tossed about by the wind. Saul vacillated between his feelings and his convictions. Everything he said and did was selfish. For example, Saul said his clan was "the least important" in the smallest tribe in Israel. But in v. 1 it says his father was "a wealthy, influential man."

Although Saul had been called by God and had a mission in life, he struggled constantly with jealousy, insecurity, arrogance, impulsiveness, and deceit. He did not decide to be wholeheartedly committed to God. Because Saul would not let God's love give rest to his heart, he never became God's man.

Taken from the NLT Life Application Study Bible